Can't sleep just now, and I'm not sure why. Everyone says I have been through a lot this week. It seem like I should feel more sorry for myself then (haha), but I don't feel much different than normal right now. I have gone back and forth between normal and emotional. What does freak me though is that maybe I am numb again and in a day or two I will cry a river. I really don't want to cry a river. I am home with two of my girls, and Joe is taking the night shift at the hospital again. It seems like I really should punish myself for this. Where it the "mom's guide to hospitalized child" book?

I think I am losing my edge...boo!