All Things New

Why I can't give up...

   I keep thinking back to particularly beautiful day we spent exploring Jerusalem. The weather was cool enough that we weren't all sweaty from spending the day afoot, and the air was so fresh and crisp. That was a great day.  I miss that day sometimes...mostly because I didn't know there really were days like that. I miss Israel, if you have never been there, you are missing a piece of your soul. Have you ever been somewhere or done something that felt absolutely right? Israel is my somewhere and helping people is my something.

   I have done a lot of giving in my life, my time, money, efforts, shoulder for crying, cars, good advice, bad advice...you name it I have given it. I didn't feel like I was making any impact in my world though, that is until I went back to school. I seemed to have chosen one of the most difficult and misunderstood professions out there. Accounting. In college every time you meet someone you will be asked that loaded gun of a question, "what's your major." I love to answer it and watch as the person cringes. Sometimes I like to play a game in my head and take a tally of the facial expressions. There is the lemon-face, the slight-vomit face, and my personal favorite the "I feel sorry for you" eyebrows.

   I even used to think accountant were the most boring, lame, -and for some reason- ugly people in the business world. That is mostly crap, and there are some crazy-beautiful people in all of my classes. I have chosen to pursue non-profit accounting as my specialty, and honestly it has to be my calling in life.

   I don't think I can have peace until I live in Israel and work with some organizations and churches who help people. I need to do something I love...soon. If you don't get to do what you feel like you were made to do, than your courage can begin to atrophy. I was made to help the people, who help people. I am better at it than anything else, and I love it more than I have loved any non-human thing. I have a sense for what needs to be done, and I feel alive while I take care of such things. Having a skill -like accounting- is no joke, especially so when someone isn't in it for the money.