It Happened

The most embarrassing moment of my life...

     Today was going to be hard, but I had no idea it was going to be the kind of day I would remember for the rest of my life! People can usually tell you there most embarrassing moment(s), until today I never had that memory. So what happened?...
  
     I had my first test today, in my most important class of my college career, Non-Profit Accounting. Along with the test I had a portion of the semester's big project and a take home quiz problem due. I worked for 5 days, which honestly wasn't enough, and didn't finish either of the homeworks. So I went to class and took my test...well half of my test because I didn't make time to really study during the homework trouble. So I handed in my test and was asked to hang around for a minute by my teacher. I will take this opportunity to say that this particular teacher is amazing, and I have never had a better experience with a member of the school faculty before her.

    So I waited until the last few students had made their way out so the real conversation could take place. My Professor took the time to encourage me, and help me figure out a plan to make better progress in my education and career. The first embarrassing part was that from the first word out of her mouth...I started crying. I could not stop, not for a second....I just stood there and cried like a baby while she talked. She handled it so well, but I felt so bad.

     The worst part came after our talk though...I walked out of class into a hallway crowded with students who i know (for the most part). It was like the naked dream. My face shows every twinge of emotion...let alone 10 minutes of crying, swelling, and red face. I probably had to look like that to at least 45 students...who by the way were waiting to get into the classroom. I walked steady but as quickly as I could to the bathroom, and waited there until I was sure most people would be in class. I know it must have happened fast, but to me it felt like slow motion! My issues made another class start late. I can't believe today even happened. I have never felt so humiliated in my life!

    I am grateful though, because having a teacher who cares and takes time out for you is priceless!

Keep Your Friends Close

We all have those friends...

     The ones who might as well have a huge X on their face. The ones who can't see any need besides their own, or any understanding of the world beyond their daily perception.

     Then there are those who you know you couldn't get through this world without. They aren't "friends"...not really...they are family. They show up when things are ugly, and enjoy with you the pretty times. They are worth the fight, the time, and any/all energy even when even your hair and teeth are tired.

     When my little Connie was in the hospital I discovered the depth of need. I had forgotten what it was like to need someone, or be surprised by the love someone gives you. I had felt alone, or isolated for a little while...then an amazing thing happened, my friends reached out. My friends came to visit us in the hospital, and asked how we were doing through text and email. I wasn't alone...

     Before that week, I had determined to cut off all unnecessary interaction. Bathe myself in my studies, and let go of any standing appointments with even close friends. After we brought Connie home (and after the insane storm), I took some time to put our schedule and routine back together. I am still not 100% back in  the swing of things, but I remember the place of friends. I will never again push human relationships to the side for an activity. I still have to be careful, and protect my homework time...but I am making or finding time for the important people in my life also.

     So this is my lecture...don't neglect your people, because they are all you have when the storms of life come. Faithful and loyal family (friends) are so hard to come by these days...I am going to take care of the ones I have.